Today I woke up past 7 in the morning, I'm planning to go to my volunteer work in the hospital but then as I went down the house and found out that I need to bring my car in the service center for it's change oil. I decided not to go to the hospital, it was my second day being absent although I made a notice to my head nurse. I decided to write my very first journal.

Well I'm proud being a nurse by profession, but as time goes by I slowly realized that it kinda bores me. I love being on duty when I was still a student, because I do learned a lot of things on practicing my skills and applying what our teachers or clinical instructors taught as in school. But then when I started my volunteer works after I passed the board exam I felt something is missing, my enjoyment on my work was slowly drifting away. At the begging I taught its just because of the work place because I was assigned to the ER, I was not exposed to that area a lot when I was a student, I'm more used to medical ward or ICU. So after 3 months I resigned and took a break for almost a year, I took care of other examinations on the nursing field that would be my ticket to go abroad particularly in the USA. All of a sadden I failed that exam and I was kinda depressed about it, but life goes on it's not the end of the world for me and there's still other opportunities out side of my dreams...

So I went back to volunteering again after I took another exam and this time I'm enjoying the company of my co-workers and I like being on the surgery ward. It was my 5th month on my volunteering work, but then again there is apart of me that was not enjoying my profession I'm feeling empty and now I'm thinking to shift careers I want to explore and do my will, the artistic side of me where I can find joy at work and I can use my skills of thinking to do something unique out of nothing.

They say that nursing is an art, maybe in away but for me medical field was very much different than on arts they do have different ways and methods, one is based on a lot of medical explanations and medical terms everything has to be done based on the medical laws it is a matter of life and death. While arts is a free will, you can experiment on different areas enhancing you're skills is base on you're practice and you're area of interest, everything around you is an art and uniquely done you just have to be appreciative, you can bring a dead art to life just use you're God given talent everything has its own special skills and we do have different artistic eye, what one artist can see on an abstract painting is different to the others it is just a matter of appreciating and let you're mind works there is a lot of great things that you can see on a single masterpiece...